I'm not one who typically deals well with change, specifically in my relationships. I'm an incredibly driven person who functions best when I'm in a committed relationship; however, my past relationships haven't been the most healthy.
Most recently, my husband and I separated and he is asking for a divorce. It's been a month and I'm doing ok, not great but ok. I realized that our relationship had been suffering for years and although, I'm sad at the loss, I know it's the best thing for both of us.
Despite knowing that, it's still really hard. We have two children and a mound of debt. So it means there's no "clean" break. I want to be happy again and I know it's a process to get to that point. I just wish the process was at its end.
I've been thinking more about what I want in a partner and in my life. Everyone says "you'll be fine", "you'll meet someone amazing who is everything you want". What if they aren't right? What if I'm not ok or I don't find someone amazing? What if I end up alone for the rest of my life?
